Hand Model? No.

When I was in my twenties I had a brief moment when I was an “actor”. Being an actor is kind of a prerequisite to living in New York City as a young person. Of course that meant that I was also in the restaurant business. How else can one support an acting career if you aren’t also working a job with flexile hours that both allows you to pay your rent and go to auditions during the day? Exactly. Actors in New York City are a dime a dozen, as they say.

Acting Head Shot

One audition I went on was for hand soap or maybe it was hand lotion, I actually can no longer remember. I had to stand and gesture, while the camera was trained on my hands. It was during that audition that I was told I had prominent veins, something I was not aware of until that moment. So I would hold my hands above my head and when the camera began to roll I would put them down and do whatever it was that I was supposed to do, hoping beyond hope that my veins would behave themselves. Needless to say, I didn’t get the job.

Now I work with my hands all the time and being vascular is not a hindrance, thankfully. However because I am often demonstrating something to do with stitching for my YouTube channel, I am painfully aware (usually after the fact) that the blueberries I was cooking with or the Caran d’Ache pastels I used to dye an old t-shirt have stained my fingers strange and unnatural colors. Sometimes I’ll notice that a cuticle needs to be trimmed or I wonder if that arthritic lump on my left index finger is getting bigger or I become painfully aware of the lead that is embedded into the skin on the tip of my right index finger from that time I jabbed a pencil into my finger by mistake. These are the kinds of things that I now see, but wish I didn’t. Still, it’s important to know one’s priorities and well manicured, beautifully kept hands and fingernails is not something I’ve ever felt I had time for. I work with my hands too much to make that practical, but even so, I do my best.

Remnants of a pencil embedded in the pad of my index finger

I’m grateful that hand modeling career never took off, as I would surely be out of work now. It’s important to find gratitude where one can. ❤️

7 thoughts on “Hand Model? No.

  1. I’ve often wondered what that mark on your right index finger was but was hesitant to ask as we a;l have quirks about our bodies and self image. No matter your hands create beautiful things and make you happy which is the best thing to havrl

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    1. Agreed. Thankfully I did not inherit my mother and maternal grandmother’s arthritic fingers, which by my age, had resulted in all fingers totally deformed. My mother hasn’t been able to hand stitch for many decades now as a result.


  2. I have found it valuable to have prominent veins for being a blood donor. Just saying some things end up being weightier when it comes to perspective. 😉


  3. I think it’s wonderful to see your hands in their natural state! I would much rather use my hands to create art than have neatly trimmed and polished hands. Here’s to the beauty of nature! ❤️

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