I’m working on something new, which is always exciting and uncomfortable at the same time. *Digression alert* That word -uncomfortable – is also used when you go into a doctor’s office to have a surgical procedure done and they say, “This might pinch a little” or when you go to the dentist to get your wisdom teeth pulled and they say, “You may feel some discomfort.” It’s like that.
When I was in college at Parsons School of Design there was a great deal of talk about design, composition, color theory, but no one sat us down and said, “Look, sometimes a design will just come to you and from start to finish it will be wonderful and you’ll love it and so will everyone else.” And then imagine that person laughing until tears are streaming down their face, only to follow this hopeful comment with, “But most of the time, that actually won’t happen. Most of the time you will follow an idea only to hate it and start all over again. Or you’ll have an idea, love it, start making it, become disappointed with it, tweak it, work on it some more, tweak it some more, hate it, tweak it, like it well enough, keep at it, and if you’re lucky, end up loving it. Or sometimes you’ll have an idea, work on it, decide it’s okay, keep working on it, like it well enough, finish it and realize it’s garbage. And then other times you’ll just hate it, start to finish and wonder whether it’s too late to switch careers.” Okay, actually I do seem to recall one of my teachers saying something like that once. It didn’t go over well.
The point is, most people never talk about the act of designing, but maybe they should. Except for saying hate, they should refrain from using that word, but everything else, because designing something isn’t linear, it’s more fluid and bumpy than that, kind of like life. Some days are easy and pleasant and everything seems to fall into place and other days are a struggle, things go wrong, everything feels off, and then there are all the days in between. That’s just the way it is. The trick is to be okay with the days when everything goes off the rails and to be grateful for the days when things are just okay. The good news is years and years, okay, decades of practice makes those off days feel less “uncomfortable” because you know you’re just having a moment and it will pass. With my River Rocks ~ A Small Pouch design, I had a great many of those “uncomfortable” moments, only to end up loving the end product.
With this new design, things are going along more smoothly, which is lovely and I’m so grateful.
*Disclaimer: I speak from my own experience and while I think others will be able to identify, there may be some out there whose experience of designing is completely different. Those people sit down and everything they do is fabulous and gorgeous start to finish and they never have doubts and always love everything they create.
I have no idea who those people are.