Courage is not the Absence of Fear…

5 PM – 7th Avenue in Manhattan

I’m not sleeping much these days. The up-side is I’m getting a ton of stuff done. Also, photographs of empty New York City streets, though eerie, have a certain grace to them. I only venture out every few days, but when I do, I’m struck by the same things: the exquisite beauty of New York City, the increasing number of people wearing face masks, the amount of space people are keeping between themselves and others, and the absence of noise.

Someone on social media posted an image like this one, with the caption (I’m paraphrasing) – Remember these? They’d be good to have right about now.

Every morning I go over the things I’m grateful for. It’s a routine at this point, something I’ve been doing for more years than I can count. Only now my list has increased exponentially. Things I once so took for granted as to not even make the list, are now at the top, among them are: electricity, food in our refrigerator, my husband’s breathing next to me during these early morning hours when I cannot sleep, but keep hoping I will be able to, the sound of sea gulls calling to each other, a friend texting or calling to check in, the little snoring noise our cat, Merlin makes when he’s curled up next to my head at night, knowing we have enough toilet paper for the next week, who knew that would ever make the list!? All the people in my life whom I love. The list is long. I’m so grateful.

Gratitude and fear are not easy companions. The fear may still be there, but its power is greatly diminished. The other day my husband and I were discussing fear and how insidious it is. He reminded me, “Courage isn’t the absence of fear, it’s going through it.” Here’s to courage, and noticing those thousands of moments of joy and beauty in every given day.

Merlin knows he shouldn’t sit directly on top of a piece I’m working on.
Until I look away, and then he does this…
My interpretation of this project by Sue Spargo is giving me great joy at the moment. For more about it, and my collaboration with Sue, you can go to my YouTube videos all contained in the Playlist #instastitchwithsue.

2 thoughts on “Courage is not the Absence of Fear…

  1. Thanks for sharing the pictures. I share them with a friend who is from NY, she is amazed, as you are, at the empty streets. And I agree, I need panties marked with the day on them, lol. It is very strange to have to stop and think about what day it is. And the fear is just beginning to creep in for me. We had an amazing thunder/lightening storm two nights ago that sent me over the edge and I have always loved storms. Yesterday I realized it was the fear that is always there now. Spring here in Ohio will help because at least we have yard work to do, but I long to go have a glass of wine with friends!

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    1. It’s odd how seemingly random things cause us to realize how much anxiety and stress we are feeling. I had a similar experience yesterday when a friend called. I felt such a wave of relief hearing her voice, far beyond what I normally feel. Here’s to yard work and other lovely distractions! I’m glad you’re safe.

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